Since I was little, I lose perspective sometimes,
picture myself thicker,
my bicep as big as my thumb,
The first time it happened
was when I was sick.
I woke up from a nightmare screaming,
in the playroom,
fists ready for a fight.
Then I felt the disproportion
of being too small and too big.
The feeling used to make me sick,
now I feel like I can control it,
like it's familiar.
Like on days when I'm a bit nauseous
and a bit lightheaded.
I close my eyes,
and feel my body from a new perspective.